“Loneliness does not come from having no people around, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible.”—Carl Jung



This has been something so complex to understand. My whole life I thought I loved myself and others. What I wanted wasn't always what was best for me, but it can seem that way when your problems are bigger than the world. For myself, I did so much to block myself from who I was. I wanted to stay around the people the did drugs, partied, stayed out excessively. Of course, that is what the normal teenager is labeled as. Everyone has their "phase". I found more than just the drugs and the people, I found another side of me that I became. The beast that just wanted love. I fed my ego with drugs, alcohol, and people. I used them to enhance what I already had inside and to push down my emotions from childhood. I was at constant battle with myself. I wanted to be who I was, but I was afraid. I didn't find people like me and the people that were, were like me. In the sense that no one understood them so it seemed, so they were hiding themselves as well. I learned that the Law of Attraction came in once I realized I didn't want to be homeless, drug addict, or alone. It got to that point for me. I was able to meet people in my life that would never have happened if I didn't allow myself to go through change. Nor would I change my past because it was all for my experience. If I didn't allow myself to love who I really am, my soul, I would've thrown it all away for the party. That one drug. That one drink. That one guy. I'm not saying its bad to do any of that, but if you're like me.. It only led to loneliness and feeling like nothing. I loved myself enough to take care of my physical, emotional, and spiritual self. Without doing any of that, I wouldn't be free from my ego. As easy as it sounds it does take practice. I have to unteach myself lessons of this world. I live today without over doing things so I can enjoy them. I don't drink because I believe it is poison, but that doesn't mean I will judge anyone for it. The way I think today is what my actions become. I guide where my thoughts go, so I can manifest my visions. Meditation has helped me so much through all of this. I love every second of the energy that flows through my body and lifts me up. The colors of the radiant light that comes down from the Universe and into my soul fills me with life, love, and peace. The serenity I receive allows me to see where I mostly need love through the dark energy blocks. I believe if I Love myself, environment, world, people, animals, and nature continuously no matter where I'm at, I will continuously be happy. Of course, there could be little obstacles in the way, but instead of running from them today I have the courage to go through it and learn what I must do. I have very loving and powerful guides. I feel so protected and loved more than ever, even though this seems the toughest time of my life. I know and feel that the next phase of life is approaching. No matter where I am at. I am going to be happy.

- Love all. Namaste
7/20/2012 03:45:47 am

This is awesome! I appreciate your words...keep it up :)

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Ashley
7/20/2012 04:12:30 am

Thank you so much! (:

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theresa
7/20/2012 05:29:32 pm

Thank u soo much 4 this, I really needed 2 read this, God bless u




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